i know it'll probably be approximately 10000 years later before either Jen or Bee reads this, but still i just want to rant it somewhere...

i'm feeling terrible. its kind of crazy, i just feel dejected and lonely and full of sorrows. (okay scratch that, that sounded too emo =/) currently i am weighed down by many many mind bothering issues. in every aspect of my life, you could say. academically, socially (well maybe not so much), family and dragonboating. and raining everyday is just adding extra weight to my already despondent heart.

you know when i say im determined to be more hardworking this semester? well i started off fine, really, until recently i had to skip 2 days of school in a row, and i felt like shite. one day was because of illness, and another a really stupid reason, which was actually an uproar that occured at home. well screw that. yup so actually the domestic mayhem actually caused a jolt in my consistency in lectures and tutorials. ok im not using that as an excuse, but that was what really happened. and within a couple of days i had to experience yet another horrible thing - kind of letting an opportunity which God put RIGHT IN FRONT of me (LITERALLY DIRECTLY IN FRONT, yes its that close) slip. OMG I HATE THAT FEELING. i wish that feeling would go away NOW NOW NOW, because i'd only brood abt it over and over and overrrr again. rawr. and dragonboating, well so much's been said and done, and now i'm past my rowing phase. i am really really sad about it. this sat and sun's gonna be my last race, and its worse that my mom cant make it. not because she cant, well she could if she could just remember the dates i told her before and not book the air ticket to china that day! but well it doesnt matter now anymore. it was one hell of a tough decision but someone told me, maybe that decision will make you a stronger person, not the other way round. and i figured its totally true and maybe i'd just make the best of everything and be optimistic in everything. (right, if only its that easy.. i wouldnt even be ranting about anything! sigh)

sometimes i really feel downright empty. the emptiness is too much to bear on such occasions. i'd really think its God punishing me for neglecting him so so much. the other day i was just praying in mass for and about lotsa stuff. one of them is peace and understanding btw my family members. its so hard to make it happen. most of the time we're peaceful, but i figured thats just because everybody cant be bothered to communicate abt the problems, and once we do, we cant do it properly in a refined way.

im sick and tired. i really need guidance to a fulfilling, wholesome and meaningful life. more importantly, a selfless one.

anyway, i really miss quality moments with Jen and Bee. all of us would always have not enough time for each other, and especially at times when i needed u both most. =( but of course its understandable, and im grateful for the presence of our Jenbeebel blog, even though like you two are always MIA from this humble blog of ours. pffffft. hahaha.



this is a front and back view of a thingamajig bee made me on one occasion when dragonboat was giving me so much pressure and unhappiness that i was crying just about everywhere, in my house, in the bus and all the nonsense. this small gesture meant a lot to me, even though Bee, you might have forgotten what that was. haha but i still take it out to see sometimes when im down u know! like now =)


and this, would always act as a reminder to study hard, and i remember being very hopeless about my exams that time. and its extra useful since common tests are around the corner. thank you, jen! =)

i hope you girls are doing well.. dance well on saturday and sunday, jen. my moral support will be given to you when im at the singapore river. feel it. =) and speedy recovery to bee!

<3,
Belly

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1 yr !!! I wan to ride my bicycle, i wan to ride my bike

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heys SURPRISE? i'm blogging my god haha.. Its really quite long since we went out eh thou a short 1 but we had a real good time of havin to suffer hunger till e romantic delication ha

Jen x6 Bee x6 Bel x6 !!

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hello everyone... belly's here and hows my happy people doing???

its after the common tests and i am so damn free so i thought i'd create an entry here. HAHA. so when are we meeting up again!?!? its the holidays already, leh! netball/dancing/dragonboat shouldnt be used as an excused, theres a whole two weeks for us u know *pouts* anyway, a series of cool events will be here soon. jenbeebel will turn one, jen eighteen and soon i'll be eighteen too! WAH so hyped already. HAHAHA.

anywayyyyy. i hoped you girls did great for the common tests. well i shant say the same for myself because i think i buang-ed the stupid papers already. -_- stupid shit. but heck la, i'm very optimistic as you know, so i'm doing my best (you bet) on enjoying and playing like mad this holiday hehe. well, the next db race is gonna be here REAL soon, and u two should know better i feel the most demoralised during this period. so, be there for me when i need two bodies to lean on ok? not that im fat or what la, but still... HAHAHA. sigh.

AND PLEASE START TO BLOG LA YOU TWO LAZY ASS!

*runs away and hides*

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Common Test SUCKKK. grrr.

We'll get through it.. and have 2 weeks of holidays! =))
Work hard girls..

Cant wait for Friday's chilling session
wheee~



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Date : 22 February 2006
Attention: Jenbeebel Organisation Members
Re : Holiday Protocol Matters

As you all know, the very horrendous imminent storm called "examiniation" will soon be over in a blink of an eye. (Which very well sums up to an estimatedly 8 days time.) Afterwhich, we will all soon be needing to address appropriately to our impending holiday protocols, which strictly only involves having fun, having fun, having fun and lastly, having fun. The welfare department understands that each member of the Jenbeebel Organisation also has their respoonsibilities to commit to their own "talents" organisation, in which respectively (from oldest to youngest) refers to Netball, HipHop and Dragonboating. Thus, besides the protocols mentioned earlier, members of Jenbeebel Organisation are also granted time-off to concentrate on their respective trainings if need be.

The welfare department would need individuals of Jenbeebel Organisation to submit their schedule of activities during the holidays. This is to allow the department to arrange the days to carry out our protocols smoothly without hindrence.

Your cooperation and kind understanding in this matter is greatly appreciated.

The welfare department trusts that each individual would embrace the storm well, and wish all a good day ahead.


Yours sincerely,
Belly
Self Proclaimed Welfare Head

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Eh which website did u get the source from? Eh pls rememer to state the source. So nex time i can use here...

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